Some are racing,

Some are jogging,

Some are walking,

Some are staying,

While I am retreating!

And Satan is laughing.

But God is grieving.

 

Confucius was confused,

"I may die without regret in the evening if I hear the truth in the morning." 

James was justified because Jesus said

"I may die without regret if the Father is pleased and you are saved."

I am so blamed and shamed!

I try to be noble outside but I am humble(卑劣的) inside；

I wanted to become a superior but I bacame an inferior.

Such a wretch is called a sinner.

Apostle Paul had no idea what a true sinner of sinners is like unless he could see me.

 

Lord I don't know why you allowed me to fall as your will is above all,

My lust and fleshly freedom were indulged so my life is being wasted and my dignity costed.

Now, my Lord allow me to fall again---Fall on my knees before you.

I raise my head shedding tears but seeing you shedding blood.

 

My confession is beyond words but let it be under your WORD!